Yesterday was a good day.
We were in Vermont this weekend for the July 4th holiday. On Sunday night, just as we were preparing the fire pit for s'mores and sparklers, I checked my phone and found a text message from my mother that said the following:
Happy is getting worse.
He can't stand up so Dad wants
to take him to the vet tonight.
I don't want him to go yet....Two weeks ago we found out that my family dog, Happy, had lyme disease, and some sort of cancer that caused him to grow tumors all over his body. His kidneys were shutting down, and he had lost A LOT of weight... not to mention all the lumps we could feel when we petted him. We were told his prognosis was anywhere from 2 days to 2 weeks. They gave my parents some medicine to keep him comfortable, and sent them home with instructions to spoil him with soft food.
[puppy happy]Once he was home and eating the soft food, he seemed to perk up a bit, and get better. So when we stopped at my parents house to pick up a few things on our way to VT, and Happy came trotting out to the car like his old self, I thought,
there's no way anything will happen while I'm away!So you can imagine how my mom's text pretty much sucked all the fun out of our July 4th festivities for me! I just couldn't believe this was it, and I was stuck in Vermont. I couldn't bear to call my parents that night, but when I spoke to my dad the next morning, I found out that they had not taken him to the vet the night before. My mom slept in the living room with him that night to make sure he was alright, but they had decided that in the morning they would take him. We were not going to get home until around 3 or 4pm, and my dad thought that would be too long to wait.
So yesterday morning was tough. All I wanted to do was be home with my family, saying goodbye to my Happy boy! I packed our things, made the beds, and loaded up the car to keep my mind off of what was going on at home.
Happy was such a fantastic family dog. He always had so much energy, and just loved to be around his people. He could always be trusted to be off leash and still stay with us.
And he smiled.
I know you don't believe me, but he really did. When we would see him after a long span of being away, he would run up to us all excited, and jump up and make this little snarly face. At first we thought it was strange, but then we began to put two and two together and realized that he was just so beyond thrilled to finally have his people back, that he couldn't help himself.
[Happy at the top of Pulpit Rock at Papoose Pond with our family (yes, these pictures are VERY old!)... Happy LOVED going camping, and especially loved hiking up to Pulpit Rock]On the long drive home, the new Miranda Lambert song,
The House that Built Me, came up on the iPod play list, and when she sang...
I bet you didn't know
that under that live oak
my favorite dog
is buried in the yardI lost it! I called my dad one more time, expecting to hear how the vet visit went, but when I spoke to him, he told me they had carried Happy out to the backyard, and he seemed comfortable. Just happy to watch his family enjoy the hot July day around him. My sister and her family were there, and my brother had just gotten home from work... and they were going to wait for me before taking him to the vet!
When we finally got through all the holiday traffic and pulled up to my parents house, everyone was still in the backyard, and Happy had actually pulled himself up to a standing position. He still wasn't moving, but he didn't seem to be in any pain. So we all had some dinner while I spent some time saying goodbye to my doggie.
And then I just couldn't take it anymore. I started begging them to hurry up and finish eating so we could just take him to the vet. I couldn't stand to see him just laying there anymore. And you know what? They actually listened to me!

About a half hour later, we were standing at the entrance to the Animal Hospital, waiting for a gurney to wheel him inside. And my poor mom... Happy was such a momma's boy from day one. Before we got him, she wanted nothing to do with any dogs... she was a cat person, not a dog person. But the moment we got him, she was totally in love. She finally understood the difference between dogs and cats... dogs give love back. It's more than a purr once in a while and a rub up against the leg... it's everything. There was never a question about whether or not Happy loved us, because he did. All the time. My mom was a mess.
Once we were inside, they took Happy to another room to get his IV catheter put in, and we were led to separate room to wait for him. It seemed like it took them forever, but when they finally wheeled him in to us, it was so great! Our Happy boy told us one last time, how much he loved us. The moment he saw us, he wagged his tail! He had absolutely no energy left, but he managed to gather the strength to give us that one last little gift. We all surrounded his bed petting him and telling him how much we loved him until he took his last breath and the doctor checked his heartbeat and told us he was gone.
There were so many tears. So many tissues in the trash can. It's going to be so strange going over to my parents house and not having Happy bark his head off at the door, and greet us when we come in.
And my brother. My baby brother who is now a big strong 18 year old high school graduate tough guy... was totally distraught. We got Happy when he was 6 years old, so he probably doesn't even remember much of our family before we had Happy. This just killed me.

But as I was driving home with my new husband by my side, and our Tucker baby in my lap, I was just overcome with how special the day was. As sad as it was to have to say goodbye to Happy, I know we were so blessed. His sickness was quick. It didn't drag on for months and months, and he didn't seem to be in pain. My parents decided to wait for me to get home, which was exactly what I needed, and we were able to all stand around Happy and let him know how loved he was as he peacefully drifted off to sleep.
And then we got home... it's so good to be home. I love our home. Just me, my husband, and Tucker. Finally, Tucker is home with us! And we had a perfect end to our day... my new husband and I snuggled together in our bed with our soft new sheets, and we prayed. We prayed for our family. We prayed for our marriage, and we prayed for our children that we hope God will bless us with one day. God is so good.
Yesterday was a good day.